What does the Bible say about insecurity?
Failure, Insecurity as a Striving Pastor & Finding My Soul in Jesus
Much of my 10 years as a church planter have been riddled with anxiety, performance and self-striving. When I started out in 2005, I envisioned leading thousands of people to Jesus…for Jesus’ glory of course.
The church planting textbooks and the pressures of a church planting network told me that after our 9 month prepatory stage, we should have around 150 people on our first public Sunday, with week 2 taking a dip down to around 80, then it should build up from there, hitting a steady 150-200 within the first two years or so.
We had 50 people our first Sunday. I unconsciously lied and told my support team we had 90. I told them I didn’t count (only people with ego problems count, I told myself). But I estimated 90.
We had 18 people our second Sunday.
So we had 18 people our second Sunday.
You get the idea. Oh and I am counting myself of course.
It’s hard not to count when there are 18 (17) people in a room.
What is 18 (17) people to a church planter?
It is failure. Continue Reading…